🗣️ HEY SIRI

Play The Jump Off x Lil’ Kim

“I’ve been gone for a minute, now I’m back with the jump off!”

In all seriousness, y’all… it’s been a minute.

All one hundred and forty-nine days of January came through and absolutely whooped my a$$!

I had plans. Goals. Energy.

And then anxiety said, “Think again, babe.”

It dug its claws in deep, and I shrunk into myself in ways I didn’t even realize were happening. After fighting it quietly for longer than I probably should have, I finally admitted I needed a little help and talked to my doctor about medication.

And now? I’m a medicated baddie. Ow. 🤭

As February wraps up, I’m looking ahead to March. Not just because of daylight savings time (although being able to drive past 5 p.m. will absolutely improve my mood), but because March feels like momentum. Like something is shifting.

We made the incredibly big decision to move back to Michigan. Which means we’re putting our house on the market here in Delaware.

And the wild part? It was kind of spur of the moment. My husband and I were talking about his retirement and what life long-term would look like here. And I said something that surprised even me:

“I think our family would benefit from being back home.”

If you really know me, you know that was unexpected. But the more we talked it through — and the more I processed it with my therapist — the clearer it became:

For better or worse, your village is your village.

If the pros outweigh the cons… why not?

I’m excited to be around family again (famous last words, lol). I’m excited to live in a bigger state with more opportunities — for the kids, for my husband, and honestly, for me. I’m curious about who 30-something-year-old Alexis is becoming. I’ve already started researching activities, community spaces, new possibilities.

It feels like a fresh chapter.

And I want to say this too — Delaware was not all bad.

This state held me together when things felt like they were falling apart. It gave me safety. Stability. Normalcy. And I will forever be grateful for that season. The only thing that will truly break my heart to leave is our church. We went looking for community, and we found exactly that. The people there have loved us well, and that means something.

There is so much to do before we move back to Michigan. It’s overwhelming. It’s emotional. It’s a little chaotic. But I have faith that it will all come together the way it’s supposed to. I will be bringing you all along because I’m serious about finally doing all the things my spicy little brain comes up with.

So buckle up, buttercups.

Because if you’re still here, you’re about to take a deep dive into who Alex really is.

xoxo,

Alexis

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